Comments, Fan Mail and Thank you notes

A First Time Visit...

I recently met with a newcomer and asked him if he would be willing to recount for you, his initial feelings and fears both before and after our meeting. I have withheld his name and email address per request. After reading his assignment I was astounded at how well he captured the very words and emotions that so many others have tried to express and were not able to. Read on and you'll see what I mean...

... Anyway, on to the assignment. I do remember when I first saw your website. I was thinking, this is it, this is what I have been looking for. Two things caught my attention, you were close to me, and you were affordable. So I figured I`ll contact you and see what happens. I can`t believe how exciting it was, and is, to receive your messages. I cant wait to check my email, and how excited I am when there is a message from you, and how disappointed when there isnt one. After setting our date for our first session, the reality of it all started setting in, and I was getting very nervous and scared. I kept thinking, I`m going to pay someone to spank me, thats pretty weird. What if people find out. How embarassing.

What if I`m tied down, and she wont stop, and its hurting, and I dont like it. What if she takes pictures, and gets my personal info off of my drivers license and tries to blackmail me. All kinds of weird thoughts. Then I decided I was just being paranoid, so lets go for it. I was very nervous when I called to confirm our time for our session, but found you to be very easy to talk to on the phone, and liked what I was hearing. During the time leading up to our session, I kept thinking, This is pretty cool, I am going to get spanked, something I have thought about forever. I got aroused many times just thinking about it. On the drive to your house, nerves were taking over, and I kept thinking, what am I doing, this is stupid. I arrived in your neighborhood about 15 minutes early, so I parked a few blocks away, and sat there watching the clock. My stomach was churning inside, and at 3 minutes to 1, I headed to your house. After I got out of my car and was heading towards the door, I thought I was going to start hyper-ventillating, I was so nervous. But after coming inside, and talking to you, I was feeling somewhat better. I found you to be much better looking than your pictures, but I was still very nervous. The whole time I was there, I was afraid to act like I was enjoying myself, which I was very much, and kept thinking that this is pretty weird. The spankings were much harder than I thought they would be, but I was enjoying them tremendously.

I knew I wasnt going to be making much noice like yelling or crying, but at times they were getting pretty intense, and I almost felt like it. The time went by way too fast, although I know I couldnt take much more. I was pretty nervous during the entire session, and felt sort of guilty of doing something weird, that I shouldnt be doing. However, I dont feel that way now, and cant wait for our next session! On the way home, I felt very relaxed, and relieved. All that worrying for nothing. I did have a great time, and theres nothing to feel guilty about. My butt was hurting, but it felt good, I enjoyed the way it felt. It took 3 or 4 days for all the marks to go away, but the memories will last forever. I did have a great time, but I know the next time will be even better, because most of the nerves, and all of the guilt will be gone.

Signed,
Anonymous

Letters received from "Fans" of my website

j b wrote:

Dear Mistress Littlestar:

Please forgive me for being so bold as to write you, but after I saw your Web site I truly can't resist. I was so intoxicated by your words, your "fun" attitude in your work that reading your site made me unhappy. Unhappy because there great distance between us makes it seem like I will never have the pleasure of meeting you.

I loved the way you described yourself as a mistress of fun. I only imagine the sweet music of your laughter as you contemplate some poor guy's suffering. Reading your site and seeing the wonderful picture of you and your maddeningly sexy legs made me feel weak and dizzy. It left me aching terribly! I had that kind of relentless nagging ache in my crotch that never quite goes away. I don't think a dozen cold showers would have calmed my poor swollen erection. In fact, I like to imagine myself shivering under a pitiless cold shower, trying desperately to make that ache go away, but not succeeding. Remembering your delicious, teasing sense of fun and your gracefully curved legs makes my erection even more sore and swollen. It hardens even more and throbs painfully despite the viciously cold shower. It's so frustrating that I grit my teeth and try not to cry but I start sobbing in defeat anyway. And if I imagine at you laughing at me and my plight....oh, it's too much!

I've never written a letter like this before. I promise to not be a pest but I had to contact you just this once to tell you how much your site means to me. jb

From star@windjammer.net Wed Aug 5 10:19:30 1998

To: ANONYMIZED BY REQUEST

Subject: Re: fan mail

Dear JB;

Thank you for your kind words!! I'm pleased that you enjoyed my website. I do indeed have "fun" at what I do. My laughter doesn't come while I contemplate the subs' suffering; the laughter bubbles out of me WHILE the sub is making his/her own brand of "music" (moans, groans, gasps, screams, whimpers, and sobs). I am powerless over this type of response; it just comes out of me of it's own accord. I LOVE IT.

Since the time that you wrote to me, I've been in the process of securing a new domicle. It's been nice to be able to think of your frustration and suffering while I was packing, moving, dealing with the countless details of moving and finally UNPACKING!! Thank you for the respite from the drudgery!!

Do not apologize ever for writing to a Domme about the content of their website and how it makes you feel. Even though I do not do phone or email training I am still honoured when somebody takes the time as you have and thouroughly explored my site and then share with me their feelings about it. If another Domme is offended or irritated by this type of attention then they need to get their heads (and egos) examined!!

Again, my thanks for your warm words. Enjoy the day pet... it belongs to you!

Sincerely yours, Ms. Star PS... may I reprint your letter on the comments page of both websites? I can anonymize your email addy and name if needs be.

Subject: Re: fan mail

Date: Thu, 06 Aug 1998 04:43:43 PDT

From: "ANONYMIZED BY REQUEST"

To: star@windjammer.net

Dear Ms. Star: I was breathless when I saw that you wrote back. You're wonderful! Reading your words is like being gently stroked by a woman's soft hand -- it teases and inflames, then is taken away too soon. Your message left me aching. I'd be delighted if you reprinted my message at your site. Please don't use my email addy but you may use my intitials. As you expand your site -- and I hope you write more about yourself (please! -- I may write you again with my reaction. Perhaps I can brighten your day again! JB P.S. I fist discovered your site via Poetrician's page. As you can tell, I am very into teasing and denial!.

Another person writes....

Dear Mistress Star,

i just made my first visit to Your web page in over a month- WOW!!! You have made a lot of changes and have a terrific site. Seems like You only had a couple of pages when i first visited and sent You an e-mail- now You have all kinds of great stuff. Sorry i took so long to come back to see it.

<SNIP> (Techy stuff)

i saw Your area about rates for sessions and can vouch that Your rates are very reasonable. Some of the So. Cal. Mistresses charge $200 per hour. The Mistress i see here regularly is a good bit higher than You and i consider Her rates to be fair and reasonable. i can't believe someone tried to get away with so little for a 4 hour scene- he must have been awfully naive or just trying to shaft You.

Not sure if anyone has told You, but the link to MsExtasy from Your Ladies link doesn't work. i seem to have a number of problems with links to people on AOL. My guess is that AOL is censoring sites for any number of reasons. Frankly, that really torques me off. i hope people like You can help others get sites on some other service and let AOL have all the puritans.

Thank You for all the hard work You and Your friends must have done putting together the web site. i'll make sure not to stay away so long from now on.

j

Another letter received...

Dear Mistress Littlestar,

Thanks to the courtesy posting of your web site on the mail list "mtmoleda" I've found you! A couple of observations and a request.....

First, a site dedicated to male subs in long overdue - and so is a mail list for the same sub set of humanity. I will certainly submit material to the site and visit it often. I'm also happy that a
femdom is behind the site, for her comments and selections will make for far more interesting and informative reading than one run by a male sub.

Second, I love your description of yourself and the joys of playing with an interesting sub/slave.
Laughter is a commidity so lacking in the dungeon but surely it has its place. Why are we males there but to serve and if you are enjoying the fruits of your fiendish torments, why not laugh! Of
all the Hollywood personages I'd like to sub for, Goldie Hawn is at the top of my list. Her infectious giggle would drive me absolutely wild as the sharp penetrated my cock. Then too, she has an exquisite, to die for, ass.

Bless you,
j